I’m annoyed at myself for letting myself get annoyed. It’s out of love! Bloody man child syndrome
Doug was drunk on Friday (so was I so that was fine), drunk on Saturday (stayed up with my flatmate whilst I was supposed to be spending time with him), drunk on monday on his own, alcohol poising on tues so off work tues, wed, thurs now he’s drinking again tonight. It pisses me off so much. So fucking much. He said helps with the lonely ness. Mother fucker I’m lonely too but I’m going to college and work and participating in like you fucking waster.
Meeeeow! Online training for 5 hours at work at least I got to sit down. College 9-4 tomorrow then work 6-11. Can’t wait to buy a new rain mac tomorrow and yummy grocery shopping 😊😊
I think it’s because i’ve not seen Doug since sunday, i started a new job on monday and it’s all new so i’m feeling a bit isolated. I drank wine last night so obv that doesn’t help and i’ve got a huuuuge upcoming college assignment. Doug is ill at the moment and off work, i wish i wasn’t working so i could just go through and make sure he’s okay, i also won’t see him till next tues. I’ve been taking sleeping pills to sleep recently and last night i took 2 at around 3am to sleep and maybe i shouldn’t have. It’s totally miserable outside today but luckily it’s only a 5 min walk to work. I also don’t think my flat has the air of positivity that i would like which upsets me.
Happy things….I’m going to clean my room and have a shower hopefully that should make me feel much better. Tomorrow is saas day and i’m going to buy a really nice mac and a handbag for paris. hopefully i’ll get paid from my job this week to. I’ll need to have a budget and work out savings but having a job i hope is going to help me out greatly. looking forward to buying really nice foods to eat next week and 100% laying off the alcohol. Going to make Doug a little care package and send it to him. life is good i just need to remind myself sometimes.
My ultimate happy place is going to be this summer moving back to Edinburgh, getting a lovely flat with Doug, seeing each other every day, having dinner together, passing our driving tests and getting a car, going camping and exploring.
Another cute couple. Say hi to Mr. and Mrs Bakra. POSERS!
i went to this place filled with sakuras omg it was like heaven .